Is there a script your heart lays out when talking about the soul?

Sugar Blues

Hawaiian War Chant

No Stranger

Kids

Shakey Graves

Mindful

Every day
I see or hear
something
that more or less
kills me
with delight,
that leaves me
like a needle
in the haystack
of light.
It was what I was born for -
to look, to listen,
to lose myself
inside this soft world -
to instruct myself
over and over
in joy,
and acclamation.
Nor am I talking
about the exceptional,
the fearful, the dreadful,
the very extravagant -
but of the ordinary,
the common, the very drab,
the daily presentations.
Oh, good scholar,
I say to myself,
how can you help
but grow wise
with such teachings
as these -
the untrimmable light
of the world,
the ocean's shine,
the prayers that are made
out of grass.

VIA MARY OLIVER

Who is this for?

Place To Start

"Your past, your sin, your doubt are drowned and gone here.
Your fear , your confusion, your self-righteousness, your despair are washed away by grace."

I Mind

Back Home

"Art consists of drawing the line somewhere."

VIA G. K. CHESTERTON, 1874-1936

I am still here.
Think I lost my love in the backyard.
good thing for shovels.
worried about making decisions 
I progress in digression,
waiting for something
conceptual interaction
I am still here.

I am still here.
Think I lost my love in the backyard.
good thing for shovels.
worried about making decisions
I progress in

Me, Who I Am

Perhaps that is what love is: the momentary or prolonged refusal to think of another person in terms of power.

VIA PHYLLIS ROSE

"Is it okay to want more?"

"If it is true that the goal and the meaning of action are defined by human wills, these wills do not appear as free. They are the reflection of objective conditions by which the situation of the class or the people under consideration is defined."

Twelve Things To Remember

1. The value of time
2. The success of perseverance
3. The pleasure of working
4. The dignity of simplicity
5. The worth of character
6. The power of kindness
7. The influence of example
8.The obligation of duty
9. The wisdom of economy
10. The virtue of patience
11. The improvement of talent
12. The joy of originating

VIA MARSHAL FIELD

And I was all love

nothing was new

it was history

black white

 colored truth.

 

02.20.16

"And then shall I come to you, a boundless drop to a boundless sea."

"Sometimes costs are made to be borne."

VIA HARRY POTTER AND THE CURSED CHILD

Pinball Wizard

"All reality sleeps here, in the seed, in the stem."

Wild West Hero

What we are waiting for

as speaking salvation into existence

could be the wholesome eternity of freedom

something cheap that lasts

we need no quick fix

we as the world, are the broken

requesting the premium package

 

04.30.2016 9:51pm

The Spark of Creation

Let It Happen

Eurydice

"he wants to touch me, get inside of me, know everything about me.
he wants to know how i got all these scars on my pretty little body
i tell him, sweet as i know how; baby i forget.
i drink from the river of forgetfulness.
i forget the names i forget the faces i forget the stories."

VIA POLAROID STORIES, NAOMI IIZUKA

The Thin Cries of the Spirit

What's my blood? Worse.
Where's the white? Now.
Who's to know? You.
Keep the nest near.

 

By gazing away, we enter more deeply into ourselves.

Is this our loss, the last reality?

VIA STRAW FOR THE FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE

Jackson

Keepsake

I am me

Truth is real

Love is harmony

Nature holds truth

it was something

it becomes something

 it is something

If you asked me how I particularly felt at this moment,
I wouldn't have any answer. 
For you've done nothing wrong,
yet I am enraged with the particulars.

Leave A Trace

I Have Seen The After

Feel Like I Do

I Can't Stop Lovin' You

If I Could Turn Back Time

Sunset Lover

Rays of sun barley touch my shoulders
yet, I can see their fragments-
and I know they are part of the light,
and I knew I was enjoying what was me.

2. Raveling

Work

And what if I was breaking through and through?

Has anyone stopped the torture?
Or is this something I must endure-

this woven fabrication.

My Junk

Didn't We

Run Away With Me

"Old Uncle Sam come down the road, tall and straight and slim
He had a shotgun in his hand and his face was hard and grim
His heels was kickin' up the dust with every step he took
And when I asked him what was wrong his whiskers fairly shook

...

I ain’t got time to talk says he, I’m in a powerful stew
So get your gun and come along, we’ve got a job to do"

VIA CARSEN ROBINSON

WIshing You Were Somehow Here Again

How does fallen desperation survive
leading an uphill climb-
regardless of the weather, demands a journey
apparently down is it-to start
with only enough space to squeeze by
past isolation and disregard
close to exhaustion
leading in uphill climb.

2.20.16

I had some gum and was sleeping, in the hospital.

I now have no gum & am no longer dreaming.

"hard to live, are sometimes, as it were, gasping for breath. I have no doubt that some of you who read this book are unable to pay for all the dinners which you have actually eaten, or for the coats and shoes which are fast wearing or are already worn out, and have come to this page to spend borrowed or stolen time, robbing your creditors of an hour. It is very evident what mean and sneaking lives many of you live, for my sight has been whetted by experience; always on the limits."

VIA WALDEN, HENRY D. THOREAU

Hope I Don't Fall In Love With You

Preoccupied with love's change-

set your minds on things alone.

There's No Business Like Show Business (from "Annie Get Your Gun")

"No! Let's have a treat! Let's disappear, when all the world was a party."

What I Likes by Pogo

HALDOL

3

You mean?-
I can leap, true to the field,
I'm the lily's sovereign right?
Be a body lighted with love,
Sad, in a singing-time?
Or happy, correct as a hat?

Oh, what a webby wonder I am!
Swaying, would you believe,
Like a sapling tree
Enough to please a cloud!

The frog's had another fall
The old oak stalk still had a pulse;
I've crept from a cry.
The holy root wags the tail of a hill;
I sing the green, and things to come,
I'm king the green, and things to come,
I'm king of another condition,
So alive I could die!
The ground's beating like flamel
You fat unnecessary hags
You enemies of skin-
A dolphin's at my door!
I'm twinkling like a twig!
The lark's my heart!
I'm wild with news!
My fancy's white!
I am my faces,
Love.

  Who reads in bed
    -fornicates on the stove
  An old dog
    -Should sleep on his paws

See what the sweet harp says.
Should a song break a sleep?
The round home of a root,-
Is that the place to go?
On harsh stone.
An Eye says,
Come.

I keep dreaming of bees.
This flesh has airy bones.
Going is knowing.
I see; I seek;
I'm near.
Be true,
Skin.

VIA O, THOU OPENING,O by THEODORE ROETHKE

What Kind Of Woman Is This?

"No! Let's have a treat! Let's disappear when all the world was a party."

Work Song

Does it all sound the same to you?
When I write like this.
Because, here I feel past colors.
This is the mess-
the absolute thing I never wanted it to be.

02.13.16

PWR BTTM

1. 
   

"Sometimes-there's God-so quickly!"

Hold Me

"But I'll think of something, Ive got to think of-something!"

Given Declamation

How d'you suppose we get on like this-

fleshed hot days, locked leveled night And  theirs the

one thing that seems to make it worth bearing.

God's whisper-the breeze.
And mostly all I am is tired resevouir,

with little to inlets or breakthroughs.
And wherever this goes I hope-

it falls quietly and stands with embraced fervant pride.
This is our soil. And the days-

pass and the night barely stays.

Who am I in all this?
I am everything.

"And if God choose

I shall but love thee better-after-death!"

Open House

"My secrets cry aloud.
I have no need for tongue.
My heart keeps open house,
An epic of the eyes
My love, with no disguise.

My truths are all foreknown,
This anguish self-revealed.
I'm naked to the bone,
With nakedness my shield.
Myself is what I wear:
I keep the spirit spare.

The anger will endure,
The deed will speak the truth
In language strict and pure.
I stop the lying mouth:
Rage warps my clearest cry
To witless agony."

VIA OPEN HOUSE, THEODORE ROETHKE

Sifting & sorting

Searching & settling.

"You won't disapoint me,

I can do that myself".

Astonishing

Where did the sun go?
After resting up on this earth so low,

I think it goes to the west-

under the curve of world down under.

 

Where does the clouds go?

After they blow away,
maybe to the sky so high.

The grass doesn't move.

Thank God it just grows.

Where did the sun go?
After resting up on this earth so low,

I think it goes to the west-

under the curve of world down under.

 

Where does the clouds go?

After they blow away,
maybe to the sky so high.

The grass doesn't move.

Thank God it just grows.

A Sleepin' Bee

"Oh, Mother Mary, and what do I mean,
The poets fallen into the latrine,-
And no amount of grace or art
Can change what happens after that."

VIA STRAW FOR THE FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE

"Oh, Mother Mary, and what do I mean,
The poets fallen into the latrine,-
And no amount of grace or art
Can change what happens after that."

VIA STRAW FOR THE FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE

This world is fundamentally unnecesary.

Nothing has to be.

It needs a creator not only for it's begining,

but, for every moment of its begining.

VIA THE THIRD PEACOCK, ROBERT CAPON

It's God's word

in a tough world

through our eyes
with Jesus's hands

and the Spirit's feet

love everlasting with retention of human promise

we are his abundent creation.

In The Lap Of A Dream

"My bones whisper to my blood; my sleep deceives me.
This motion is larger than air; wider than water;
Fly, fly, Spirit. A strange shape nestles in my nerves.
Whisper back to me, wit. I'm ready to be alive..."

 



 

"I lay all alone
In the lap of a dream,
Far from the waters

That were my home

Rocks began flowing

Down my valley,

The ground cried out

My secret name."

 

 

VIA STRAW FOR THE FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE



Present

See through

past - into

there.

Drivin'

Expialidocious

"It all seemed narrower and pettier than true love would feel, in my opinion- and yet it was life and adventure sitting right next to me."  

VIA DEMIAN, HERMAN HESSE

"As the year flutters by

existence has changed you

from a helpless pup

kicking and screaming- clinging

to a life of unknown

into an 'individual'

allocated to the strive for acceptance

from a society intent on your destruction."

"I was well aware that it was impossible to love me as I was,
and I did not love myself either."

 

 

"Time had no home in me."

 

VIA STRAW FOR THE FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE

I fear, how I feel for you so..
Walking in so quickly- twisted round, and there you go
but where do you wanderand what do you enjoy in your days of blue?
Convinced in oh so little, feeling oh so much has never fealt this true.

Caring breeds trust
Humility is truth

Here I Am

You're welcome to my ways. I will not hide or cower. Meet me in complaceny or fervant being; here I am. Always attend currently to agony over unrest. Never distrust, and always remember where you came from- across the tracks and what you carry on your shoulders.

 

 

"Recall the heaven's light, you speechless man."

VIA STRAW FOR FIRE, THEODORE ROETHKE

Beautiful City

HOPE
Reasonable view of seeing that there is still realistic good to be done.

 

"The line comes from God, doesn't it?
The line is given.
We do not create it, and thus, it is not ours to modify.
It is only ours to obey or betray."

VIA THE LAST DAYS OF JUDAS ISCARIOT, STEPHEN ADLY GUIRGIS

Operator

"Why...
didn't you make me good enough?"

 

VIA THE LAST DAYS OF JUDAS ISCARIOT, STEPHEN ADLY GUIRGIS

Living in a community

growing in compassion

how we listen

when we choose to be.

Defying Gravity

What do I know about self?

 In what ways does letting people in-

prosper or deteriorate personal gain,

reflect in personal doing or else.

"The things the pastor spoke of lay at a great distance from me, in a silent, sacred unreality; however beautful and valuable they were, they were not at all urgent or exciting.. those qualities in the highest degree"

VIA DEMIAN, HERMAN HESSE

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

You are the pedestal to be put upon.

Nocturne No. 7

this is all I have-
density
I have everything,

and it seems unfair

hard to hear it's definition

Today I will be open to compliments, without controlling them.
Today we took 50 staples out of my right foot and changed my antibiotic on the hour.
When we remember we are not in charge and our will is not in control-
we are restored again.
I am blessed.

VIA Tuesday July 15th, 2014

Can't Do WIthout

"I'm going to tell you what to do

& you are going to do the exact opposite."

Keepsake

EXPECT

SOMETHING

BETTER

Don't you know the world is water?
you can't float on it, can't scare you
Afraid to swim it, No, you can't-
Just stay on land..
Somehow you got to break that water- kick and pull through it.
you cross each length with stride and strength.
You pace the course with even force-
your hand in front of hand

You go by stroke, by stroke, by stroke,
by stroke, by stroke.

You go by stroke, by stroke, by stroke,
by stroke, by stroke.

So meet me at the touch of water and take some laps with me.
Some free, some test
with our book and breasts.
We'll keep our style for the millionth mile-
and when it's more than we can stand

You go by stroke, by stroke, by stroke,
by stroke, by stroke.

Let others walk around an ocean, let others try to build across.
But you and me

fall in.
fall in.

never sure we'll survive, but we'llfind out how deep..
Learn the secrets they keep at the bottom where we arrive.

So let's jump.
Let's Jump.

We'll never know we're alive -

till we jump,
till we dive.

You go by stroke, by stroke, by stroke,
by stroke, by stroke.

So meet me at the touch of water,
and take the swim with me.

VIA JASPER IN DEADLAND, RYAN SCOTT OLIVER

"Then came the years when i had to recognize once again a primal drive within me, one that had to cower and hide in the permitted world of light."

VIA DEMIAN, HERMANN HESSE

The Man I Love

Loose yourself on evidence

"They smiled at the good
and frowned at the bad
and sometimes they were very sad."

Take The A Train

"Let's just say that durinng my travels I've become acquainted with interior states that collapse the distance between people. Sometimes, despite how far apart we are physically, I have drawn very close to you, right up into your intermost chamber. I can feel what you're feeling. From here."

"Dark, dark my light, and darker my desire.

My soul, like some heat-maddened summer fly,

Keeps buzzing at the sill. Which I is I?

A Fallen man, I climb out of my fear.

The mind enters itself, and God the mind,

And one is One, free in the tearing wind."

 

VIA THEODORE ROETHKE



"For it is written, I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, and will bring to nothing the understanding of the prudent."

"The magnolia trees hadn't read. They didn't think love was a mental state, the magnolias insisted it was natural, perennial."

VIA THE MARRIAGE PLOT, JEFFREY EUGENIDES





Waiting

Tummult of anxiety provoked by waiting for the loved being,

subject to trivial delays (rendezvous, letters, phone calls, returns).

 

... Waiting is an enchantment: I have recieved orders not to move. Waiting for a telephone is thereby woven out of tiny, unavowable interdictions to infinity: I forbid myself to leave the room, to go to the toilet, even to telephone (to keep the line from being busy)...

 

 

VIA THE MARRIAGE PLOT, JEFFREY EUGENIDES



I Want A Boy by PWR BTTM

I do want a student

Who lies and reads at night,
But I do not want an officer

Who goes with feathers in his hat

 



"Recollection is a means not only of conserving but also of augmenting."

THE SEDUCER'S DIARY, SOREN KIERKEGAARD



"Just what exactly is it that you're looking for?

The mind plays tricks on the memory. Time is skewed to benefit convenience. Events are compressed for greater efficiancy or expanded to accommodate a false sense of triumph. This being the case, it's hard to say exactly, but it seems to me that I spent close to fifteen thousand years standing stock-still in that exact same spot, searching for answer to question."

 

VIA NAKED, DAVID SEDARIS

"That would do."

Mutiny by Prince and The New Power Generation

SPENCER

"I'm the new here and now."

"I have called you by name;

you are mine."

Just for today I will try to live through this day only and not tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

 

Just for today I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my luck as it comes, and fit myself into it.

 

Just for today I will try to strenthen my mind. I will study. I will learn something useful. I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.

 

Just for today I will excercise my soul in three ways: I will do somebody a good turn, and not get found out; if anybody knows of it, it will not count.

 

Just for today I will have a program. I may not foloow it exactly, but I will have it. I will save myself from two pests: hurry and indecesion.

 

Just for today I will have a quiet half hour all by myself and relax. During this half hour, some time, I will try to get a better perspective of my life.

 

Just for today I will be unafraid. Especially I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, and to believe that as I give to the world, so the world will give to me.

 

Just for today I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress becomingly, talk low, act courteously, criticize not one bit, not find fault with anything and not try to improve or regulate anybody except myself.

Lost Boy

"There was a rich man; he had great flocks and herds of livestock large and small. There was a poor little maiden; she possessed but a single lamb, it ate from her hand and drank from her cup. I was the rich man, rich in all the glories of the world; You the poor one who possessed only your love. I took it, I delighted in it. Then desire beckoned me, I and sacrificed the little you possessed- I could not sacrifice anything of my own. There was a rich man; he possessed great flocks and herds. There was a poor little maiden, she possessed only her love."

VIA THE SEDUCER'S DIARY, SOREN KIERKEGAARD

"One must limit oneself-that is the primary condition for all enjoyment."

If You Were The Rain

"Then radiant you shall be."

Have A Little Faith

Will The Circle Be Unbroken

Keep this in your heart.

Heilig

Big 9 Music Festival 2016

with Grandma

Rochester John Marshall

You Don't Need To Love Me

"All that's happened is happening now."

I Have Nothing

Great Adversative

Are we big enough with our thoughts- the story of our salvation

A deep peace in giving

Grand Nevertheless

He invites us to believe that he made all things new

Divine intervention (reward the obedient)

to save your life you must lose it

Ultimate However

The waiting God is much different than this world's truth currently

Quintessential But Still

Let us grow out of accustomed

Although God's pain includes everything we are bestowed our own journey

I am equal abundance in this life

My Number by Henry Green

Amie by Pure Prairie League

"Little words are the sweetest to hear; little charities fly farthest, and stay longest on the wing; little lakes are the stillest; little hearts are the fullest, and little farms are the best tilled. Little books are read the most and little songs the dearest loved. And when nature would make anything especially rare and beautiful, she makes it a little; little pearls, little diamonds, little dews. Life is made up of littles; death is what remains of them all. Day is made up of little beams, and night is glorious with little stars."

Smoke Gets In Your Eyes

I've Told You Now by Jeremy Jordan

"I am odd, I am new

I wonder if you are too

I hear voices in the air

I see you don't, and that's not fair

I want to not feel blue

I am odd, I am new

I pretend that you are too

I feel like a boy in outerspace

I touch the stars and feel out of place

I worry what others might think

I cry when people laugh, it makes me shrink

I am odd, I am new

I understand now that so are you

I say I, 'feel like a castaway'

I dream of a day that's okay

I try to fit in

I hope someday I do

I am odd, I am new"