Pancakes and Sausages With Juice.

I find myself often thinking that what I am living is not deep enough or real enough to actual life. With a beginning of a new year right under my feet I now partially understand that I am living something real and good, I need to appreciate that.

Looking towards this next year 2011, I guess you could say I am apprehensive in regard to what I need to do to become the person that I want to be. I many past situations I will cop out of a good learning opportunity for myself because I am basically just lazy, but then later that day I will think about how I am not progressing as a person which a constant want for myself. In a nutshell my new years resolution is to become more accountable for my actions, and to gradually work towards being the person that I want to become.

After a week and a half long break I am very excited and nervous to resume my time spent in the halls of my high school. I am excited to begin where I left off in creating. With college auditions, a honor band or two coming up, big steps towards taking my possible future career head on and other things it will be invigorating to try to create a lasting impression and mainly art. A sense of nervousness could also be detected somewhere in the act of resuming school, mainly because school doesn't care what life is handing you and will not wait for you. I guess it is just scary to understand that in many cases people won't care if you don't turn in a paper or an assignment. When I walk into school on Monday, bags filled with my folders and loads of homework, coffee in hand I hope to have an ambiance of integrity to myself to excel in what I am involved in. I think I can do that.

My holiday break has been wonderful, a little self indulged, slightly frightening but mainly motivating. Here we come 2011, I am ready to live.

Song of the day - Perpetuum Mobile by Penguin Cafe Orchestra

"Do things with passion, or not at all. Wherever you go, go with all your heart." - Anonymous