One Day

Who knows I might have been the only one that noticed, but I didnt post last night. Sorry, my days have been going so quick and lately I have just been so tired that I find it hard to blog this late at night. But, I really don't like blogging mid day because then you miss out on the rest of my day. There is absolutely no happy median with this issue, I will just have to deal.


My day was brilliant to say the least. At 11:05 I had a radio spot about Once Upon A Mattress, it was intresting. All past radio spots I have done were pre recorded and then aired later. But, the one today was live! I have to admit it was nerve racking, kinda fun though. Then after a trip to the grocery I had my first trip to Beno's in a whole year. I litterally almost died! Words can't describe how much I worship Beno Sandwiches. After devouring my lunch I was so full and satisfied that I went and took a nap - which was really nice.

My day then proceded to move along as slowly as possible. two a' clock, three a' clock, 4 a' clock, and finnally at five I went downtown to take some photos before practice. Here are the shots I got -

Practice went horrible. End of story. The whole show sucks.

Around nine I went and played capture the flag with some freinds. We didn't really get that far, no one was really motivated to actually focus on the game. So we just ended up heading over to a freind of mine's house. Where we just hung out, munched on some food and had fun. It was his birthday today so it was fun to end his day, just hanging with a bunch of freinds.

Sometimes I think about how I wish I would have known a person sooner. I understand that I really have no actual control over when and how I meet some people. But for instance I met this guy just a few months ago and he is now a graduated senior, about to move up to the cities for college. I practically just met him and whenever we hang out I have a great time and now he is moving away. Just my luck.

My life is filled with freinds birthdays, games of capture the flag, horrible play practices, people that I really love hanging out and bad luck. What will tomorow bring?

Routines Get Old

My days are following this regular pattern. Wake Up, eat breakfast, hop in the shower, bike somewhere to take photos, head home, go to practice, come home lay around and end the night by writing a blog post. I must admit it's nice, by no means at all is it leaving me having bad days. But, I am not sure if I like the idea of a regular routine that I follow every day. I really enjoy the spontaneous moments of my life - that's what makes my days fun.

Today someone asked me if I would take some photos of them. At first I was really excited and then I became really scared. First of all, this is a person that just graduated, never really talked to and this would be my actual first shoot with a model. I don't want to cancel but I am scared its going to be really weird.

We have a week from tomorow / actually today till opening night for my show. I feel like we are nowhere near ready. Hopefully something will change my luck around and help this show get finished in time.


Photos from today -

When I wake up, who knows what I am going to do with my day.

Matinee Showing

What a intresting day. I really can't comprehend yet if it was good or bad, it just was. After waking up at 9:00 and feeling like a walking, asleep zombie I got ready and walked over to a meeting at Mugby. Two fellow students and our advisor had a meeting to discuss the deatils of my high school's upcoming drama season. We have a packed year full of great artistic oppurtunities, but there are still some things that could be improved. After SOFA (Save Our Fine Arts) had the discrepancy with the school board. We have lost completly all of our funds and find it hard to fill half, of our alrady small theatre. It is just sad that we have no support whatsoever from our community, when theatre is such a beautiful art. So we sat around with our mufins, coffee and tea discussing what we could do to better to our drama program and got no where. I guess i'll just have to wait and see how this whole year unravels itself.



After the meeting, a freind and I quick ran by ShopCo and picked up some candy for her plane ride the next morning.


And then headed over to the movie theatre to catch a showing of The Ugly Truth at 2:30. I knew I was going to like the movie due to its great previews. The movie was really funny, followed the romantic comedy checklist and never ceased to keep from wanting it to keep on going. With such a talented cast I knew that it couldnt have been a complete flop and for a $6 matinee it was worth the money.

I am going to up to the cities early in the morning, so I should proabably get some rest. Here was some photos from today. Hopefully tomorow goes well.

Popped Tire

I knew it. I fealt it. I just knew that today was going to be amazing. Every single minute of my day fealt in place and right. After last nights capture the flag / risk adventure I was so wiped out. I drank two whole Mountain Dews just writing last night's blog. I ended up falling asleep at like 3:30, so when I woke up at 2:12 this afternoon I wasn't at all surprised.

After getting up, hopping in the shower and eating a french toast bagel I headed over to the Winona lakes to take some photos. Just on the bike ride there I was stopped by a train and almost run over by this complete idiot. This idiot had put his turn signal on a block before the crosswalk where I was. So when he started to slow down and gave me a nod I started crossing the street. Obviously I missed something, because he was kept driving sraight even though i was crossing! Even though he has had his turn signal on for a whole block already. The best part of it was that when he nearly ran me over, he didnt yell out his window saying "sorry" he just grunted, left his turn signal on, and continued driving down the street. What a prick.

Once I got to the lakes thankfully in one peice, I adventured around and took some really great photos, here is the basis of what I took today.

After my camera battery died I headed home, cleaned up, got some food and then headed off to practice. It was a day just to work on the loose ends of the show, in which I found that we needed to work on pretty much every scene. Were screwed. When heading home my tire popped. So I walked my bike down to the levey and took some photos of the sunset. Those photo didn't turn out that great, they were just kinda borring.

Tomorow I am going to the movies to see The Ugly Truth, attending a meeting at Mugby Junction to discuss Winona Senior High's 09' - 10' drama season, and who knows what else. My life is filled with surprise and I wouldn't want it any other way.

A Life Like His

Wow, what a day! Today is one of the main examples of why I love where I am at in life right now. A day filled with art, freindship, meeting new people, discussion and just living in the moment.

So I am proud to announce that my wish list from Target (in previous post) now has one less item on it: today I went and picked out the super cool pair of slim cut jeans. I just had to jump on the oppurtunity because they only had one more in my size and I dread oredering things offline. I am not really fan of Target jeans either, which is why when I saw these I had to get them!

Around lunch time I revisited the Target and picked out the camera I have been waiting for forever!!! I was much to impacient to wait for them to get one in black, so I settled for the blue. The camera is brilliant!!! For $250 it takes photos like a professional camera. It has every feature I will need at a decent price. I have been waiting for so long to get a camera, and I just love my new Sony Cyber Shot DSC-W290. I have been monkeying around with it, and here are some shots I took today.

My friend told me about a game going on at 8 of capture the flag dowtown style which I was game for! We headed over to the parking lot of Merchants Bank, waited for people to show up, picked teams, and then started the game. About 18 poeple showed up and it was a complete blast. Met a guy named Kevin, who we asked to play while he was skateboarding past us. When the cops came over at around 10:45 the game quickly ended. So we spent most of the night hanging out down by the levey sitting in the grass. It was kinda chilly so we relocated to Perkins where we played the boardgame Risk. A very elaborate game i have found. My parents were freaking out when I wasnt home by 1:30 so I left mid game.

Whenever I hang out with a friend of mine, i am always astounded by what he is doing with his life. Its not as if he is famous, or striking it rich... all he is doing is living his life the way he wants to. This past year he hitch hiked to Memphis Tennessee and back. Thats like three states away, just hitch hiking! Next month he plans on train jumping for awhile, just to see where it gets him. keep in mind not only is he living the life he wants, but he has these great standards, philosophes and stories. I would give anything to live my life the way he is not train jumping or hitch hiking but just living my own life. He makes me question my standards and my every day routine. Which I believe is helping me step by step to live a life like his.

I have a feeling like tomorow (actually today) is going to be great, I just have this feeling inside of me.

Center Stage

Drip... drop... drip... drop... Today was just rainy, dark and humid for most of the day. Which was truely disappointing for me, I woke up at 9:45 and looked outside to just see a sky of grey. It's not like I had anything planned, but I would have loved a nice sunny day. Due to the poor weather I spent my day being very lazy. I did get a little bit closer to being almost done with a book I started a while ago, which is nice.

Around diner time, the moody weather finnaly let up. So I took a stroll over to the Target and fiddled around just wasting away time. During which I found a ton of stuff that I am just dying to buy... to bad I need money for that. So instead I created a wish list in my head containing - these super cool pair of slim cut jeans, a grey striped vest, a pair of blue canvas shoes, roller coaster tycoon 3, these super bright blue plaid shorts and my camera that they still dont have in my color. So some day when I get some big bucks I am totes heading over to Target for a shopping spree!

I really love theatre. I dont really know what I want to be yet, but it would be so amazing to pursue acting at a profesional level. But if I would ever want to pursue that, I am already a step behind the game. The real competition already has agents, headshots and an actual substantial theatre resume. I go to shows, read the blogs of actual actors and spend every minute wanting to aspire to be them. But what if im not enough? What if im not that dancer, that soloist, or that actor that leaves them speechless? I dont know where to start, when I am in a situation like mine. All I can hope is that when the time comes they will understand and let me try to become someone brilliant. I just need exsposure to the real world and center stage.

Its where I belong - I know it, I can feel it. I don't care what it takes.

Some Sweet Kicks!

What if time just stopped. I wonder what I would be doing? Because if time just stopped at any given moment, I would want to be doing something I enjoy. Maybe I would be playing piano, acting up on stage, reading a book under a tree or maybe just spending time with my friends. I guess this thought is really irrelevant considering that hopefully time won't just stop, but I was just thinking about how people spend there lives and if they are actually enjoying every moment. So with me getting a new chihuahua i have found the joy of them chewing on intimate objects. For instance my dearly beloved pair of Vans. I must admit they weren't in the best of shape before we got Chloe (my new dog) but now they are just silly.

So I have decided under the circumstances... I need a new pair of kicks. I was searching around when I found these sweet pair of shoes! There are called Onitsuka Tiger Mexico 66's - just the name is awesome! Except on all the online stores I cant find them in the color I want (birch / green) and that really bugs me. I could buy them at a store, but the nearest store with them in stock is like two hours away. So, its a lose, lose situation.

Here is the pair I want, but cant find and unlike the picture I want laces - So the show I am in right now, Once Upon A Mattress preformances are quickly aproaching. Sunday we tie up loose ends and then we only have about eight more rehearsals till opening night!!! Meaning one thing - no scripts. For some reason I am always the one of teh last people with there lines down. Its not that I wait till last minute or that I dont care... its just that memorizing lines takes me forever to get down. My brain just doesnt think or work like that, which is really unfortunate for me, if I am at all remotely intrested in pursuing theatre at the profesional level.

Bravo Tv never ceases to amaze me! The Fashion Show hosted by Isaac Mizrahi was no "knock off" of Project Runway. PR just got old, and slightly borring after the fourth season with my personal favorite contestant Christian.

My favorite quotes of his include: "Thats fierce!" "If I was a diva I would be called Ferocia Coutura and I would spray girls in the eyes with hairspray!" What a hot, tranny, mess!" Project Runway was moved to Lifetime, while The Fashion Show Booked its spot. I knew right away that Anna was going to be someone to watch out for. The season finale premired tonight and I was so anxious to see who won the grand prize. To my pleasant surprise Anna WON!!! Lets just say, im excited for next year's season.

Sometimes I think we forget or just overlook the fact that love is not a controlled action. It is in the moment, it is desire, it is everything but deceit. You cant choose who you love, it just happens.

Few Chapters Further

My day was a really nice change to what I am usually used to. Instead of slepping in till eleven, then wasting my day away untill practice later at night - I got up at 9:30 to babysit my brother while my mom ran some errands, then I went tanning, had lunch, sat in the car while my mom ran into maurices, then went to Target where my little brother had a complete freak out because we wouldn't get him a Thomas the train toy. I hate it when kids that you are associated with throw a tantrum in a public place because while I have no possible control over how they act and when they will stop screaming, I feel as if every single person is staring at me. They all just walk past and stare... I feel like a complete fool and I am not even the one screaming! Well after the little fiasco in Target we headed off to the grocery store. Just another regular trip to the grocery until i found this little boxed meal. The label reads "Tasty Italian Wrap" - it looked just so good, so I had to get it.

Here is the extent of what was inside (minus the pop) -

At first i was a litte bit scared, rembering my last occurence with the gryo. Who knows... the label stating that it was a tasty italian wrap could be misleading me just like the waitress at Fayze's. But after taking a bite I knew that it wasnt bad! The bolagna was a little overpowering at times and the sun dried tomatos were a little sweet in some bites. But for a measly $2.77 I was impressed!

The rest of my day was pretty low key, got a few chapters further in the book im reading, cleaned my room, and watched part of the Top Chef marathon. It was nice to not have practice, for once.

I also got around to painting the canvas that has been siting around in my closet.

At first I was going to re-create the baloon house from Pixar's recent film UP but once I finished painting the sky, I moved on to the balloons which were much harder then I thought. It ended up looking bad, so I painted it white and started over and ended up with this. It really is a depiction of what is going on at my mind at points.

I miss always having something to do, I miss seeing my friends regularly, I miss alot of things... but i am not yet ready to head back to school. I am simply trying to find the right balance that works for me.

In The Audience: Hair

About three weeks ago I attended UWL's preformance of the musical Hair. Me being a "new-be" to the tribe and its overall effect on its audience, I truely didn't know what to expect. The only thing i had heard or seen about the show was the song preformed earlier this summer at the Tony's. A friend of mine and I drove over to Lacrosse (about 30 minutes away), had diner and then went to the show. We had one spectacular night!

Once we arived in Lacrosse we went out to diner at a restraunt called Fayze's, which is known for its bakery goods. When ordering I couldnt decide between a chicken ceasar salad or this thing called a gyro. Please note: I had no idea what a gyro was. After asking the opionion of our waitress she said that the gryo was really good! So trusting her judgement I ordered the gyro... to my unpleasant surprise the gryo was so gross! It was this shaved foreign meat on pita bread topped with this cottage crumply cheese. Oh not to mention the random vegetables tucked inside the whole thing. It looked okay... but it had no flavor at all, it was like a bland, mushy, mess. The whole time I wasn't really sure how to eat it and I just did not enjoy it. So in the end I wasted ten dollars on a disappointing meal and was still hungry. Well at least I know next time to go with the salad.

We decided not to reserve tickets so we arrived at the theatre thirty minutes early to ensure that we got seats. My night got better when we ended up getting second row tickets. The set for the show was so cool! It was colorful, full of levels and even had its very own hippy van!

Bad photo but you get the point -

The show itself was so good. At the beginning of the show is was like "okay, where is this really going?" but after that, it never ceased to amaze me. For the duration of the show I fealt like I was part of the tribe and its magic. Near the end of the show when the whole cast is singing "Let The Sun Shine In" and we were litterally five feet away from us - i just was consumed by the music and the beautiful story. I've heard how this effect happens on everyone that goes and sees the show, but i had no idea what they really meant.

The show was an enrapturing preformance that was unforgettable in every aspect from a spectacular cast, to a innovative set and spot on acting.

Closet Painting

Somehow a conversation came up today and went like this -

"So whats new?" (me)
"Well not much, except the economy" (freind of mine)
"...the economy?" (me)
"Well its not like its something new or anything, but it seems like my life is just revolving around the fact that we have a crappy economy. On friday nights I think to myself 'hey it would be a great night to go to the movies' but then I remember and say 'oh yeah... the economy' And its just not with the movies, one day it will be about going shopping and the next will be the debate over a sit down diner or fast food." (friend of mine)

Truely I completly understand what my friend is going through. You know it is bad when you have to revolve your life around a depressing factor in the world.

I stepped out of practice today for Once Upon A Mattress (which I had biked to) only to discover that it was raining. I was like come on earth give me a break and anyways whats up with this weather? One day it is a beautiful day, the next it is cloudy, damp and raining. When the rain let up about half way home, I got over the fact that i was wet and enjoyed the ride home.

Tomorow i am hopefully going to: attend a student council meeting at perkins, babysit my brother, hang out with a friend that is leaving town thursday, go for a jog and finally paint the canvas that has been sitting in my closet for who knows how long.

P.S. I really want to be casted as Willy Wonka for our fall musical.

A Day With Mother Earth

Today was a beautiful day - the sun was shining, a couple of whispy clouds dotted the blue sky while a soft breeze blew through the trees. It was just truely breathtaking. So with such a beautiful day i fealt obligated to spend the day with mother earth. I ended up spending the day outside sitting in the grass, walking down to the park and fitting in a nap under the sun. Later i went and got icecream and got pictures devoloped at Wallgreens. My day was very relaxed but i enjoyed it, a day like this doesnt come around that often.

I have come to teh conclusion that i really love board games! With my family in town visiting I have played my share of Monoply and Clue for a good while. But i always seem to forget how much i like playing a good board game every now and then.

My day might have not been the most exciting day of my summer. But sometimes it is just nice to let loose, not care about anything and live life.

A Midsummer's Night Love, Labor and Lost with Romeo and Friends

Even though I do like to rant and say how boring Winona is in the middle of the summer's heat. I have to admit that Winona is perfect in many ways - something artsy is always going on, or at least in the surounding area. Just in July and June i have been witness to some spectacular preformances - ranging from HAIR at UWL, multiple dance recitals, three concerts from the MN Beethoven Festival, a piano recital, art showings, and two shows put on by the Great River Shakespeare Festival. It is just smazing what i am always up to - because there is always some concert or show preforming at any given moment and I wouldn't like it any other way.

So with my family in town and a tight schedule, today was my only free day to go do anything. I had the option of going and seeing Honk! across the river or go to a free public preformance of monolouges and scenes from shakespeare by young actors from the community. Not only was the Shakespeare preformance free but it had one of my friends in it - so i decided that i had to go. This preformance of Shakespeare was the culmanation of a 10 day seminar / camp where young actors get to work with the profesional company from the Great River Skakespeare Festival. I know what a oppurtunity!! The program itself was intense with scenes from Romeo and Juliet, Hamlet, 12 Night, Midsummer's Night Dream, Julias Ceasar and more... The Actors were just phenomenal. And to think I almost attended Honk!

I know in the near future i am going to get out of here but for right now i am okay just living in small town surounded by the bluffs, living life.

Farmer's Market

Today was one good day. This morning i went and got some of the best doughnuts in the whole world, adventured around at the farmer's market, then had a family reuinion, saw Harry Potter with some freinds, and then ended the night with a never ending game of Monopoly. When i was getting doughnuts i saw a friend of mines mom and to tell you the truth i never really know how to address peoples parents when i see them. I am just never sure if i should call them mrs/mr... or by there first name. So instead i just pretended like i didn't notice that we were stading right next to eatchother. It was just one bad situation.

So I was planning on going to the midnight showing of Harry Potter, but they were sold out when I went to go buy my tickets. So instead I went today and let me just begin by saying that it was brilliant. It times i fealt like they left out some really important parts from the books but I guess that could have been expected. During every moment that i wasnt at the edge of my seat i just kept thinking about how it all is coming to an end. I never really understand how much I love some parts of my life. I can't believe that this series only has one more / two part movie! By the way if you havent checked it out yet please watch Harry Potter The Musical by U of M - www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmwM_AKeMCk

This weekend was my family's annual reuinion so my whole weekend has and still will be just jam packed. So this morning it was really nice to take a drive with no particular purpose. My aunt and I ended up checking out the farmers market which i never really took time before to check it out. Whenever i get to experiance a mass culmination of people and the many things that they enjoy and love - I just get this feeling like this is people at its very best. Sharing the many things that they love with complete stangers.

Some time this week i am going to go and adventure around, and find that perfect hill with the greenest grass and sit and watch the sun set. I'll let you know what its like... when i find it.

Life In A Nutshell

Life is always changing - and sometimes i just forget to sit back and enjoy what is currently going on. I am only going to be a sophomore in highschool and i am already thinking about college. I am just afraid that i am going to look back on these years and its all going to be just one big blurr. I got back from a party a little while ago and i had one great time. I want my life to be like tonight - full of endless fun, plenty of friends, music, heated discussions and the cool night's sky.

Sad story... it was super windy last night. The cables connecting my TV and internet fell on to my garage so i am like stranded in my wreck of a house for who knows long... knowing my parents.

For some reason I always feel like Iam a step behind regarding a lot of things or that I take everything way to seriously. This reminds me of theatre, am I really the only one that really cares and loves being in shows? Like sometimes thats all i can think about and it is my life...

WSHS 09' 10' Drama Season - Willy Wonka (fall musical), Hush Little Celia, Don't Say a Word (winter one act), Radium Girls (spring three act).

Tomorow / well today i guess: i have a family reuinion and then a trip to harry potter the movie. I'll let you know how it goes.

Belle (From "Beauty and The Beast")

INSET 09.23.2020

Passing Time

Last night i set my alarm clock for 9:00 - quite earlier than my usual 11:00. I was hoping to do something productive with my day maybe finish my draft for my schools play write competition, take my dog for a walk and pick out the camera that i have been waiting to invest in. My alarm was gone and past when i woke up at 12:30, only to spend my day like usual... doing completly nothing. Well i guess thats not completely true, my day wasnt that bad - i did make it to Target, saw a friend who thinks she stole someones spatula from my party last week and i picked out my camera.

I stopped and took a long look at a calender today. I just cant really grasp the facts that it is already mid July. Like where did the first half of my summer go to? Completing another grade, Beauty and the Beast at St. Marys, marching band practice and parades, multiple graduation partys and auditions for Once Upon A Mattress - just doesn't seem to fill up six weeks. For some reason i am just really distressed over time. Maybe, its the fact that its virtually uncontrollable and whatever i do i can never get it back...

I really dont want to look back on my summer and think "wow, i did compeltly nothing" so i am going to set my alarm clock again and try it all over, till it sinks in.

A Birthday Goal

With turning one year older and looking back at my year, i noticed it was just like any other. This year i hope to acomplish something unique and never look back. So here is to a year of - blogging, multiple shows in diffrent theatres, art, friends, music and no regrets.