Center Stage

Drip... drop... drip... drop... Today was just rainy, dark and humid for most of the day. Which was truely disappointing for me, I woke up at 9:45 and looked outside to just see a sky of grey. It's not like I had anything planned, but I would have loved a nice sunny day. Due to the poor weather I spent my day being very lazy. I did get a little bit closer to being almost done with a book I started a while ago, which is nice.

Around diner time, the moody weather finnaly let up. So I took a stroll over to the Target and fiddled around just wasting away time. During which I found a ton of stuff that I am just dying to buy... to bad I need money for that. So instead I created a wish list in my head containing - these super cool pair of slim cut jeans, a grey striped vest, a pair of blue canvas shoes, roller coaster tycoon 3, these super bright blue plaid shorts and my camera that they still dont have in my color. So some day when I get some big bucks I am totes heading over to Target for a shopping spree!

I really love theatre. I dont really know what I want to be yet, but it would be so amazing to pursue acting at a profesional level. But if I would ever want to pursue that, I am already a step behind the game. The real competition already has agents, headshots and an actual substantial theatre resume. I go to shows, read the blogs of actual actors and spend every minute wanting to aspire to be them. But what if im not enough? What if im not that dancer, that soloist, or that actor that leaves them speechless? I dont know where to start, when I am in a situation like mine. All I can hope is that when the time comes they will understand and let me try to become someone brilliant. I just need exsposure to the real world and center stage.

Its where I belong - I know it, I can feel it. I don't care what it takes.